Sometimes, it can be really hard to look at certain circumstances as blessings. I may not make a ton of money, but just the fact that my job has really good health insurance makes it worth it.
I am so grateful that out of the blue, one of my friends from high school asked me about voice lessons for her daughter. Having the opportunity to teach both flute and voice lessons now is such a joyful experience. It has been so long since I was able to do that.
I have decided that I need to do good things for more people. I am going to start an organization that crochets shawls and scarves for needy people. It is part of a Pay it Forward that I received last year. I have a friend that has a friend that is a forensic nurse that works with trauma victims. Sometimes, these victims come into hospitals with nothing to keep them warm. I think that maybe if they had something handmade, it would show that someone cares. If anyone crochets and wants to donate their time to help make someone's day a little brighter, let me know :)
My friend has been posting a blog this week about infertility. It has made me think so much about my own circumstances. I stayed on birth control for years because of health reasons. I know that I needed to be on birth control to keep the tumor from growing, but it makes me wonder if I had never started, would that have allowed me to get pregnant by now? Maybe it is just not my time to have a baby. Maybe there are other things God has in store for my husband and I.
I am seeing a specialist to try and get some things right about my body. Once the time comes, I will talk more about it. There are some really amazing changes that are going to happen and I can't wait to get things in motion.
It absolutely makes me so upset to see pregnant women complaining about well, being pregnant. First off, if you aren't listening to your doctor, you have no right to complain. You have no idea how it makes women who cannot conceive feel. There are women that would give every cent to their name to have a chance to experience the miracle of pregnancy. It is still too soon for David and I to give up trying, but we may have to start looking at alternative methods of becoming parents. I have 2 friends that have offered to be a surrogate for me. That is truly a blessing in itself. I just wish that people who have brought circumstances upon themselves would not try to be the victims and would realize how choice and accountability works. Life isn't easy, but when you make better choices, it definitely helps things along the way.
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